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Archives 03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004
04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004
05/01/2004 - 06/01/2004
I dont know why but I havn't had the urge to write much lately. I have just been out partying and having a good time. When I feel emotional enough to write in here again Ill be sure to say something profound and thoughtful.
Mike at 12:49 AM
Im too lazy to write about the whole trip so just ask me about it. I had a great time though I was nervous when i met Star and Charlene but by the end of the night me, Jose and Star were sitting at taco bell laughing and bein stupid like we have known eachother forever and that was really cool. I cant wait til they come see our hometown next summer. We ended up meeting Jackie in another part of mass too she is someone jose has been talking to for a while. We went to a party with her which was kind of weird but it was fun definetly. I had wrote a whole lot of stuff about the week but it is Jose's 21st birthday and we are drinking so I erased it by accident. I loved new york city I want to move there some day now... but I dont see it happening. I hope people missed me while I was gone because by the end of the trip I was thinking to myself how it would be great to have a gurl at home who misses me when Im not around... maybe this year I'll find a gf!!!! Ha HA HA... if not any freaky gurls can still get drunk with me if they so desire lol!
Mike at 12:29 AM
Were leaving in a couple hours. Im sitting here waiting fore my laundry to get clean man this has been crazy. Last night my car started acting up... cylinder misfire. Luckily I was able to fix it this afternoon with some spark plug wires. This is actually happening...me and jose always talk about going on road trips and this time were packed up and going. Hopefully we dont spend all of our money so we can make it home haha... guess we will see.
Mike at 2:55 PM
I know I left my last post and it seemed as if i was pretty upset. Actually I am doing just fine now. I had a very emotional weekend and the effects of alcohol made everything come out in the open faster and more powerful then I knew it even existed inside of me. I don't have a lot to say besides the fact that I'm getting excited for this weekend. I realize that I had always been looking in the wrong place for a shooting Star because the best of the best Star's arnt in the sky they are in Massachusets lol. I don't have a lot more to say tonight except I love my friends. I say that to every person who has ever been there for me when I was down, or made me laugh harder then I ever thought I could, or the people who just fill my life with happiness everytime they step into the room. Whether we used to be friends but let eachother go, or we just met over the past year, or those who have always been and forever will be my friends... I smile just because my life is blessed with you or was blessed with you at one time. You all know who you are. Today is a happy day!
Mike at 12:22 AM
How can life be so filled with tears, with broken dreams and sufficating existance. Alone, the only thing i feel is alone and something just isnt right. I want to cry.
Mike at 4:13 AM
Love is one of those emotions that is never 100 percent clear. We say we love someone what does that mean? Love comes in so many forms that I dont think the human brain is capable of differentiating between the types. Even the love that comes along with undying friendship has a hazy line of unknown territory. Sometimes when you think about things you wonder if the person you love will leave you the way others in your past have. Its not like you CANT live without that love, but when they leave it takes a part of you that you can never get back. I think we are only really HALF of ourselves, the other 50 percent of who we are is made up of lost friendships and memories and current connections that remain growing and strong over the years. Last night, or earlier this morning im not sure when exactly it was because I havn't been to bed yet... i thought about life without one of my close friends and broke down in tears. I know a rather large part of this emotional episode came from being overly intoxicated, it could have also been the fact that I never really have the time to say the things I want to say... life flys by so fast and I get lost in the confusions and I get sidetracked. So I cried... i cried like I havnt in a long time and although I feel a little less manly after it all I am glad that I got it all out. You see... you never know when someone close to you may leave you... death, arguments, natural growing apart... no matter what the reason may be its important that you say what you feel no matter how busy things get because one morning you may wake up and they will be gone without you spilling out your soul to them. So if you LOVE someone, in whatever form it may be make sure they know it and never take them for granted dont let them fade away into the mists of life hold them with you or follow them, but whatever you do make sure they know. Im sobering up a lot but im tired as all hell so I think I'm done now.
Mike at 7:11 AM
Lately I've been really into trying new things. I don't mean that in any sexual or drug abusing way or anything. So in honor of my new found desire for exploration me and Jose are going to do the geekiest of geeky things. Next weekend were heading out to Massachusets to meet some friends we know from online. Star and Charlene seem like two pretty cool people and I will know for sure soon. I think it's important to look past other people's views twords you and to try things that will help you grow as a human being. I've always wanted to hit the east coast to just breath in the air over there, sitting with my notebook and writing down everything and anything that comes to me. I've always put it off and put it off, but now talking to those special people online just gave me that extra kick to just jump in my car and go. Were going to be leaving Thursday evening, starting our 11 hour trip threw Canada stopping so I can Buy a 22 and Jose his 40 and just sit somewhere and just shoot the shit. As we hit Mass on friday we will spend the evening with Star and Charlene and see how shy I really am. And sat before we head home maybe take a ride threw Boston. This should be a nice get a way for me... to leave the monotonity of everday life and test the limits of my out spoken nature. Hopefully things will turn out well and I will have a good story to share when I return.
Mike at 12:01 AM
This is my online Journal... if thats what you want to call it. Sometimes topics might actully be something you want to respond to. Feel free to email me if you want, eventually I might even set it up so you can post comments right here on the page. Thanks to all you nosey people who are reading this haha
Mike at 3:46 AM
So I was hanging out with my friends Rachel and Jon the other day and we got into a religious conversation. It was obvious from the get go that we all believe in a higher power, but what is constantly argued is that god has a "plan" for everyone. In my opinion I think we have been given the choice to make our own decisions and god has no control. When I mention decisions I mean it more then just deciding what we want, but subconciously also. Why do we fall in love with people who don't love us back? Somewhere inside we decide that we are in love with that person or are attracted to that person. I personaly believe that if god were in control of us that we would only feel love or attraction for those who love us back just the same. What would be his reason to let us be attracted to something that can never happen? Look what it has done to us as people. Im sure strip clubs, hundreds of rapes per year, prostitution, and crimes of jealousy and passion were not in his plan. You could say it's lucifer I guess, but honestly I dont think its the devil screwing us up. It's humanity and their foolish choices, we cant go and blame what we did on someone or something else. That just displays our irresponsibility and makes my views even more clear to me. Think about it.
Mike at 3:30 AM
"A true friend is better then a thousand lovers, greater then any kiss a women will ever place upon your lips. A true friend, one that you love, will be there despite the level of hardship they must partake in for the simple fact that they love you with everything they behold. They are are your friend"... M Jones 2001